Chipping Away at My Roadblocks

     I had the delightful experience of seeing a picture of a small boy wearing a pair of PJ's I included in a small box of odd things I still had the tags on. I had extra things, as a result of those 3 pair packages with duplicate colors (big bargains on Amazon), which ended up having one extra that never got out of the original package.
     That box was given to a young man who helped me with an odd job and a dump run yesterday. His wife sent me a picture of their son waving at me wearing the PJ's with a smile that looked like it was Christmas for him. I'm realizing I hold onto some things because I don't know who needs them, but, more personalized evaluation reveals, not sure why - but want to let it go, I want to see who gets the things - but, I don't want them to know where the things came from (dilemma? or massive roadblock?)
     This is calling me in for some deeper exploration. Shopping bans don't always mean 'no shopping' but they do mean 'nothing new for myself - purchased with my own money' except for the approved list I created BEFORE the year started. I put gifts for my children and grandchildren (reasonable-utilitarian-thoughtful- $25 or under each That's seven gifts pre-approved and I'm guessing 
     I've exhausted their desire for wire art long ago lol)I've been good!! Only browsing a bit much a couple of times (Facebook Marketplace is the DEVIL hahaha), I quickly got to the thought 'why am I doing this to myself?' when at least 10 things (at garage sale prices) caught my attention. 

Let's keep decluttering and remembering the reason for the year of going deeper, 
Deb

2020 Day 23 My Depth Year Notes

2020 (Day 23) Depth Year Notes This year is my Depth Year. My 'Going deeper rather than wider for a year' year (i.e no new possessions, no added tools/books/supplies). Going deeper into what authentically-me art-creation means, no more making stuff I think I remember someone said would 'sell' and no more 'fitting' my art into the market. I will be utilizing the supplies, resources, and tools I already have in place (this part I'm vastly experienced at having created much out of little for most of my life). I am dedicated to the deeper goal of creating an accelerated mass shift to gradually minimalist. (I can hear it...this is in transition, and resistance is presenting with a loud voice) -- It looks/sounds like a more time-consuming task than it actually is 'in-the-moment' when I have 30-minute blocks carved out for each goal, each day, to make progress. Some days I delve in longer, but, in the big picture, these 30-minute blocks take about 10 minutes here-and-there scattered throughout the day in the midst of day-to-day self-care and caregiving. Time is already happening. I just decided to use it differently. When I might have bought a new kindle book...I'll sort books off the cloud I'll never read, and donate a few off my bookshelf. When I might have put a new something in the Amazon cart (and spent 30 minutes sifting through reviews so I get a relatively good one) I will repair what I already have or "LIVE without it" ;-) I would say the most challenging is living 24/7 with a change-resistant committee in my head. They're talking about me as if I've lost my mind. They have strategies to stop me from reaching my goal (well-meaning over protective rationalizing from the old perspectives). They'll get used to it. Eventually. In the meantime I'm listening closely, reframing perspective, and nurturing with ''This is fabulous progress...one-day-at-a-time" Create - Believe - Inspire Deb