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Sunday, May 20, 2012

No Time For Tears -- Until We Meet The Sea

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There have been tears.  Most of them have been while driving.  I often talk to myself and to God when I am driving and what better time to contemplate the events of the past few weeks?  There have been 2001 miles of discussions with myself.


I might have sat with these feelings in a different way.  I think the reason this 40 Day Journey is important is so I can take my time with them.  Not sit on the couch in front of the television watching sad movies (tho' that kind of approach can be a great release)... I felt I needed a more proactive approach to sort through the changes and fully evaluate what choices to make here on out.


There is still that lingering thought " ... I am not lovable or worthy of a committed relationship" which creeps in at odd and unexpected moments.  There are still echos of hearing "... since we are not a couple anymore" from someone who I have been committed to in sickness and in health, richer or poorer.  I will not deny the feelings, but, I will ask that they engage in this journey before jumping to a decision.  


I know when I am sitting on the beach and listening to the waves while the seagulls fly into the sunset I will have a better grasp of who I am now.  Who I am becoming.  Where to go next.  That question 'Where will the next chapter of my life unfold?' will be answered and  I will know. 


Day 11 Begins May 21st
Day 1-10 May 1-10th
Day 11-20 May 21 - 30
Day 21 - 40 June 11- 30
Beyond The 40 Day Journey ... More Will Be Revealed


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To Be Continued...
Deb Bryan (aka GypsyOwl) embarked on a leap of faith 40 Day Journey on May 1, 2012 and with the help of sponsors, hostesses, and God's Hand, is taking a break from making decisions about the next adventure in life by having an adventure.  From May through June (traveling 20 days a month) she will explore the country and meet people she has worked with online.


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2 comments:

  1. Enjoying reading about the journey and all the friends that you have met along the way. Hope the journey continues to go well, and that it's a wonderful experience to look back on.

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  2. I so deeply admire you for what you're doing in this situation. I am certain that someone "out there" will be drawn to your words and will receive the nurturing and the knowing that they are not alone. You are leaving a trail of lights to help another as they journey through their own dark night of the soul. May God richly bless you and reward you for your service.

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